Maria
Maria Monterroso
Maria
there’s a quivering sensation inside my heart
and I want you to understand it right from the start
o.k. so apparently my name is Maria
and I live in a Paradox
see I loved him so much that I placed my self in a box
I dug a deep hole to the pit of my heart
cause I’m told that’s the beginning of where it all starts
they say there’s a thin line between love and hate
and I’ve been fighting so hard to open up these pearly white gates
but the river runs deep
as deep as these veins
and I’m border line emotionally, hopefully temporarily insane
my backs been hurtin and I couldn’t figure out why
until I realized I was committing loves greatest suicide
a classic case of Stockholm syndrome to say the very least
I was loving him so much that I took away his hands and his feet
killing two birds with one stone the second one being me
to learn that all I along I could have just walked away
any minute of the hour, any second of the day
but apparently my names Maria
and I live in a Paradox
see I loved him so much that I placed myself in a box
I dug a deep hole to the pit of my heart
cause I’m told that’s the beginning of where it all starts
the bruises on my chest just weren’t enough
to tell me that I had to let go of my nurturing clutch
cause I remembered the day that he held me so sweet
and the probability of his actions were accountable to me
but nobody knew the depths of our "loves" sincerity
and that It didn’t matter if I got hurt severely
they say there’s a thin line between love and hate
and I’ve been fighting so hard to open up these pearly white gates
but the river runs deep
as deep as these veins
and I’m border line emotionally, hopefully temporarily insane
the insecurities and paranoia haunted his mind
which lead him to take actions like his heart was blind
the furry grew bigger the day he pulled the trigger
the wind blew hard and I felt a shiver
by name is Maria and I lived in a Paradox
see I loved him so much that I placed my self in a box
R.I.P 11/12/09
